Friday evening my mother and father had my sisters over for dinner in their home in Iceland where they all ate a beautiful dinner together and laughed and talked. The weather was wonderful and at 11pm when my sisters said goodbye to my mother and father they were smiling and waving and marveling at all the trees they had planted on their property in Iceland. My mother had been complaining about an ache under her shoulder blade and up the side of her neck but not anything that really worried anyone.
At 2am my mother has a fatal heart attack in her home and my father tried his best to revive her until help came but even with help there was no bringing her back. My mother was gone. Taken too soon at only 68 years of age and way too quickly. I get the call about her having had a heart attack before they knew if she was really gone or not. They were still working on trying to bring her back for over an hour. It was honestly the longest 30 minutes that I have waited. That time where you still hold the hope that maybe, just maybe everything will just be fine but you know that your life will change forever if they are not OK:
That night I lost my mamma. I lost the greatest woman that I have ever known in my whole life. I lost the role model that showed me what it was to be a woman, a wife and a mother.
Now here I am in Tulsa trying to make it home. Wanting to bring my family of 5 with me but it costing over $7000 US dollars if I do. My passport is also expired and my 9 month old doesn’t even have a passport. As I try to make the decision to put my family in such financial hardship to use up ALL of the money we have put aside for an emergency to pay for our mortgage and food if needed and start putting charges on our credit cards and take the whole family or have only me and the 9 month old go and leave my poor 3 and 5 year old with my husband’s parents for over 2 weeks. That is a VERY long time for a 3 year old that recently became the middle child and needs his mamma. My heart is aching over this.
As this all happened on at the beginning of the weekend I have not been able to talk to anybody about my passport issue or try to find out if there is a way to get get reduced tickets because of the circumstances. At the moment I could use a fairy god mother since neither me or my husband come from family that have money. We support ourselves and are our back up so we have to be careful about keeping a roof over our heads and our children fed.
Wish me luck in trying to make these decisions and get my passport issue taken care of. Of course if you have more money than you need and would like to donate to the fund. I would not say no at this point.