I borrowed that video from a friend that just posted it on her blog. It inspired me to really think about how my thoughts of being alone have changed through the years. I remember hating being alone as a teenager and early 20s. It made me anxious. Now a husband and 3 children later I really LOVE being alone when I get the opportunity to be. Which is maybe once every 2 weeks when I get to wander off to the store by myself. I feel at peace and wrap myself up in the silence. Of getting to finish a thought with out it being interrupted.
Don’t get me wrong. I love my children and husband but there is only one of me and 4 of them and all 4 need me. I am outnumbered by 4 amazing people that I am proud to call my family. That I’m so lucky are healthy and happy and only need me to do what mothers and wives do. But I am only one person that also needs the healing that comes with being alone.
If you feel uncomfortable being alone I want you to try this exercise. Next time you find the opportunity to be alone get a pen and paper or a journal and just write down everything that comes to mind. Doesn’t matter how crazy it sounds or weird. You don’t need to keep this. You can shred it as soon as you have finished the exercise if that would make you feel better. Just let it flow until you have nothing left to flow. Until there are no more feelings of anxiety left in you or the time you have allotted for this exercise is up. Read over the paper again to really read your own words. Let them sink in. Are these feelings that you might need some help to work through or are these feelings that now that they are on paper you sort of feel that the next time you might feel better about being alone? Are you feeling alone or lonely?
Hope all of you are lucky enough to get some alone time this week.